Posted by Julia on June 27, 19100 at 14:41:33:
In Reply to: Scared -- How Do Others Keep Hanging In There? posted by sarah jean on June 27, 19100 at 14:31:53:
I have felt exactly like you at times. You don't know how you will
move on, but then, somehow you do - because you ahve to.
Mourning the loss of the ability to conceive with ease like most
people is very tough.
Good Luck!
: I'm 34 and I've only gone through four "treatment cycles" -- only hormones, not IVF.
: We were trying to conceive for almost a year before this. Tests have revealed no problems.
: I feel guilty even writing this because I know others have been
: through so much more than I have so far. But I still need some help, I think.
: I'm awaiting my B-HCG tomorrow to see if this cycle worked and I'm an emotional mess.
: But that could just be due to the Crinone (Progesterone) support.
: I feel like I'm going to be completely devastated if it's not this month ...
: I read a lot of the previous notes/responses on the message board and I don't know
: where you all get the strength. People go through treatments like this for much longer
: than I have, and I'm already feeling like I'm "losing it". I'm cranky frequently, which
: I'm not sure is due to the hormones or my frustration at feeling inadequate and sad because
: I haven't conceived yet. I hate being this way to my partner, my family and my friends. I'm
: not even a good friend because my best friend told me she's pregnant and, although I expressed
: all sorts of enthusiasm, I really don't want to talk to her. My cousin visited with her new baby
: and I was depressed for two days after that. I have trouble concentrating at work and I "obsess"
: about my next doctor's visit and getting pregnant. I know it's not healthy and I am functional and
: I do have a professional to talk to, but it doesn't help. How do other women walk around and enjoy
: their lives while going through month after month of this?