Posted by Lisa on June 18, 19100 at 22:18:54:
In Reply to: Here we go again..I don't know if I can do this again.. posted by Leslie on June 18, 19100 at 15:03:11:
: Tomorrow is most probably going to be CD1. It seems to be coming a few days sooner than expected...so here we go again. I will probably be calling the RE's office tomorrow to jump back in to all of this stuff. I don't know that I want to do this. I think that I am just prolonging the inevitable. I am just going to be disappointed again and again. I am in such a bad mood and I am so angry that I have to go through this. Remind me again why I am putting myself through this again rather than giving up and moving to adoption. Leslie
Leslie- You are doing this because in your heart, you know that this can work for you. It is always so scarry to start a cycle, as you are bracing for the worst and to not do the cycle would spare you the disappointment from a failure. I think you know you have to do it though, as if you don't, that feeling would be even worse for you. I was always in such up and downs while cycling. Not being in a cycle was so stressful because I wanted to be doing something, and once I was in it, I was so afraid of getting bad news again. I know how hard it is, but try to have a good feeling about the possibility that this can be the one. You have come so far and your last cycle was a positive step for you. I had two chemical pregnancies before a cycle that stuck. I refused to give up and always felt each cycle was one closer to the final success!