Posted by on June 11, 19100 at 18:45:11:
In Reply to: I'm not sure what to do.. posted by Leslie on June 06, 19100 at 20:24:02:
: I don't know what I am looking for by posting this. I just didn't have the greatest weekend or the greatest day. As many of you know, I had a positive beta that didn't work out. I really tried to stay positive..to think that this is a sign that I should try, try again. Now, I don't know if I want to do it again..or how many times I should try it again. I know that before the + beta, I was doing better. I mean, I was just coming to the conclusion and beginning to accept that this maybe wasn't going to work out for me..of course I was sad about it, but I was happy that I had made some decisions and that I would definately have a baby. I was feeling better being around pregnant women and hearing about babies and pregnancies. It wasn't bothering me so much. The last few days though...it is bothering me again..and I hate it. On one hand, I think that maybe this was just proof that I can get pregnant..on the other hand, I think this may be proof that I am going to be in for more and more and more
: disappointment. I have to wait until the beginning of July to try again...the summer will be almost over by the time I get my next beta. The fall will be here...it will be another year gone by. I feel like I am wasting my life away. I don't know what I should do..try or not try and start getting excited about the idea of adoption again. You know, it couldn't have been worse timing that this happened...just as I was getting some peace in my life, this happens. Something that I wanted so much and worked so hard for was just dangled in front of my face. I am just so angry about it. Leslie
Hi Leslie!
I Haven't posted in such a long time. Although I won't forget where I came from, I felt that I had drive myself a little nuts with the boards. I was too anxious about the pregnancy. But reading you reading your message made me realize how I felt during my times of trying to conceive. I hope that you are doing well. I just wanted to let you know that you are very smart by starting infertility treatments when you did. Some women wait until it is almost towards the end of their reproductive years to do so. You still have so much time in front of you. I think you are 30 or 31 right? I am not making light of the fact that you don't want a baby as much as someone older, but in infertility treatment, they say that time and besides lots of money are the two things that are definitely on your side, in addition to luck. My advice to you is to keep plugging in there. If your job doesn't offer infertility, some women go as far as getting another job. I don't think that infertility is something that you can rush. As you know, these things happen when you are least expected. Just don't give up hope, you still have plenty of time. I wish you luck in the future try or tries. HOpe you had a good weekend.