Posted by Leslie on April 21, 19100 at 07:29:36:
I just wanted to let everyone know how much it meant to me to have you all respond to me when I was in pretty bad shape a couple of weeks ago. It is good to know that there is a place to go to get support from people who really "get it".
I am doing better. We start pergonal probably at the end of next week or the beginning of the following week .. and right now, I am actually OK if it doesn't work. We are only going to try it 2 to 3 more times before moving on to looking into adoption. Sometimes it makes me a little sad and scared to begin looking into adoption more, but mostly it is making me really excited to think that this nightmare could really be almost over. I think I lost sight of what was really important in all of this. I had such a focus on this desire and need to experience pregnancy, but it is the baby that is what is the most important thing. It is the baby that will help to create a family and I don't think it really matters how it becomes part of your family. I don't know if I am explaining that well, but that is where I am at right now. Yah, I would love to experience pregnancy. It will take a while for me to get over it if it doesn't happen, but for the first time, I think that I will be OK.
Thanks again. I love you all.
Leslie