Posted by on July 21, 19100 at 10:42:02:
After 5 years of ttc, AF shows up After 5 years of ttc, AF shows up once again, right on time. I just don't understand it. I should be 6
months pg with my first (from the 2nd
IVF). What happened? What happened to my 3 "perfect" little embryos? Why did I lose embryos that I wanted so badly? This year, I was looking forward to giving birth, to my first baby shower, to giving the gift to my parents and husband that I really have been wanting to give for a very long time. I am miserable
and desperate for this suffering to
end. When will it? I have been pouring out my troubles to the Lord, why isn't He
helping?? Why are my petitions being ignored? I watch as my husband suffers, he
had high hopes of starting tx again but yet we get slapped with a huge tax bill. We
cannot seem to save any money for
another IVF. I will be 36 soon, I feel I am running out of time, as I am not the best
responder. I just cannot believe I will be
turning 36, and still not pregnant and miserable as ever. I am the only one in my entire
family, that is married and has NEVER given birth.
"Give me children, or I shall die" Genesis 20:1