Posted by Lauren S on May 02, 19100 at 21:28:49:
Hi everyone, I haven't posted in awhile. I'm keeping myself extremely busy, so that I don't think too much. I still don't know if my numbers are all the way down, and I still REALLY don't know what my next move is going to be....more tx. or adoption next year. The only thing I've been able to do is work my butt of, both at work and at home. I think that I have pretty much relandscaped my entire property in the last few weeks. It's almost like a "nervous energy". I know that this "nightmare" really is almost over, but I just don't feel that I have the ability to try to figure out what's next. It's almost hard to believe that there might be life after IF treatment. I keep wondering if I could "live" without ever going back to my RE, giving myself shots, driving 40 minutes with a specimen cup between my legs to keep it warm etc............To most people it would all sound so crazy, but to me....it's been such a big part of my life.....oh well, as my dh keeps saying, I don't have to make the decision today. Thanks for listening. I hope you all are well. Lots of love, Lauren