Posted by Leslie on July 15, 19100 at 10:37:39:
Thank you all so much for your support this past week. Out of everyone in my life, I found what all of you had to say the most comforting and the most valuable. I know that I am so angry, hurt and sarcastic, that I am probably not the easiest person to care about, yet people still seem to care...that is amazing.
My husband and I discussed it. I am going to go through this next cycle with my current RE. I have all of the pergonal already. And, I want to see how it goes with being on the dexamethasone and possibly the metformin (I am still waiting for the results of my Insulin Resistence blood test). After all, I did get a + last time I did a pergonal/IUI cycle..let's see if I can do it again..but this time, for keeps.
I don't especially like the new diagnosis that I got. But, there are definately some things about it that make some sense even though I don't want to admit to it. They are definately things that I feel more than a little self-conscious about.
After this, I don't know. We discussed getting a second opinion after this try. We also discussed adoption. I like the idea of saving for a Chinese adoption. I have been trying to have a baby for a long time. I never wanted to be an older mother. I wanted to have my babies in my 20's. Time is Marching on and I don't know if I have it in me to do this any longer. It hurts too badly and it is affecting almost everything in my life.
We also discussed (more seriously than the adoption)..getting another insurance plan for me. I am going to do research this week and call an insurance broker and look into plans that cover IVF. My husband would rather go that route. He feels that in the long run it will be less expensive. But like I said before...I don't know if I have it in me to do this much longer. I want to experience pregnancy..but in the long run, I am going to love my baby no matter how it got here.
So..that is what is going on. In short...we'll see! Take care and Thanks. Leslie