Posted by Dawn on July 11, 19100 at 06:53:53:
In Reply to: It's official...my body is a piece of crap!-long vent posted by Leslie on July 10, 19100 at 17:44:55:
: So much for me taking time away from the board. Like I can stop thinking about infertility for more than 5 minutes at a time. I definately can't go through this alone..that is for sure.
: Well..today, I got a new diagnosis to add to my list. It seems as if I have PCOS although I am not a typical case. I have to take dexamethasome when I start my next cycle at the beginning of August. It seems as though my testosterone and DHEAS were elevated. I have to go tomorrow morning for a fasting insulin test to see if I should go on metformin.
: Oh..but what I just said is the good news. The bad news is that the big, bad IVF word came up again. I got benched this cycle and got put on bcp's for 42 days because my FSH was 10.4. They don't let you do a cycle if it is over 9. Apparently, my RE feels my endometriosis is severe and my cyles are getting irregular. She can't decide, is it the elevated FSH? Is it my bad endometriosis? Is it this PCOS thing? Gee..there are so many things to choose from!!! She does believe that I really need to be doing IVF though.
: But..here is the deal..I am doing 2 more pergonal/IUI cycles and then I am done! I don't like the odds of IVF ESPECIALLY if I have an elevated FSH. I mean..doesn't that mean that my eggs suck and that IVF probably isn't the best thing anyhow? I was accepting all of this until my stupid, cruel + beta. God just decided to give me just a little taste of what it might feel like to be told that it was +..then it got taken away just as quickly. That was such a cruel, cruel thing.
: I hate this.
: Leslie
Leslie-
I read your post last night and thought long and hard about what I could say that you would find encouraging. I came up empty. I am just so sorry. You have been through so much with this. I know how hard it is to be diagnosed with one problem, and be fighting that battle, and right in the middle of it have to switch directions to fight something else. I think it is good though, that you have set a limit on how many more cycles you will endure. That means the end is in sight. Hang in there. No matter what path you may end up taking, you will be a mom. I'll be thinking of you- we all will.
-Dawn